2009 ended quietly for me.. no hoohas.. just spent time with my family..
something i havent done for the past few years..

so much has happened in the past year..
i graduated.. i went overseas.. lived alone..
came back.. got my heart broken..
it still hurts.. some days more than others. sometimes i dont even want to get out of bed
but i know i have to. i just have to.
im trying hard to get on with my life. trying not to think about it.
but its hard.
i know everyone says time heals it all.. it all gets better with time
im waiting for time to heal me

the past few years.. my life revolved around him. i neglected alot of my friends
now that im alone.. i realised i lost alot of friends. everyone has their own lives
i have to learn to be stronger and be more independent.

a month flew by since i got back
time passes so fast, yet i dont feel better.
i dont know how long it will take for me to heal

i dont know what 2010 will bring me. it feels the same so far
i'll be going away again in feb.. this time till the end of the year
frankly, im terrified. this time, i'll be really alone
everyone thinks im strong enough to do this, but im not sure
im dreading feb27

no new year resolutions for me
just new year wishes
hope 2010 will be a better year than 2009
hope i'll be able to walk out of this as a stronger person
hope we'll both be happier

Wishing all of you a Merry Christmasssss

and a Happy New Year 2010! :D

XOXO